A nice day for a walk and protest.

As of today... Wednesday, 10/12/2011... the earth is still spinning and the world is still changing, today i felt 1960s in a modern way.

1st... does anyone know or care??? Who KIlled MICHEAL JACKO? The news team is still there...

Today i took my books to sell at the last bookstore.

It was a long ass walk.  but i did enjoy it.

After 45mins of walk, i finally got there around 12pm.  i started walking around 11 something.

I sold all those precious books probably worth over at least 300 dolllars worth  and i only got 35 bucks for it.

It was around 1:15pm and i was hungry, so i decided to get some Mexican food!  i ordered the Tortas cubano.   This stall's tortas was okay... i had better ones elsewhere.  Though i was impress with the chef making is all slowly and detaily as he layed down each piece of meat.

With Torta at $6.50 and the large Thai tea with Bo-Bao at $3.50... the whole meal was 10 bucks.  So with the $35.00 i made from the books... now i'm down with 25 bucks.

Walking back home, there was a real big demonstration and protest!

What is the turth in my own brillant trillion point of view... NOT

like a fool this is the truth.

Do  you recognize your own truth?

i try to and it sucks!  Becos, even you tell them what happen that day, when it is shameful, you only try to denied it.  For examples, i had two friends, both are happily married,  but during work, they fell in love with each other.  Lets call them Gina and George, okay who are happily married..... BUTTTTT..... but they found out or that they realize that their own spouse is not the Perfect MF one for them.   So..... they decide to hang out with each other and their love begins to grow.

So this is the perfect and the simple example of "adultry."


So the thing is.... for some odd reason, one of them calls me up,  Gina ....."CRYing "  i keep on asking her whats wrong... and for some weird and odd reason, i kinda knew they were dating each other, but i wasn't super duper sure, so i didn't jump into conclusions.... Well...also the fact that George is moving to another State... thats how i did my own investigation...

, i call George to ask him about it.... So he DENIES it and DENIES it and denies it .... that's the perfect example of us the human race, for we like to denied and denied and denied and fucking denied until i gooooo crazy and start shouting and cursing at them and start threating them to NEVER to speak to them again.  hahaha.... and in the end ,,,,, the truth is out. And that's it.... i don't care, but i just want to find out what happen and if that is the truth or not.  Shit... shit happens and we don judge, BUUUUUUUT we must change and know that just go back to your Love... which is your Husband and  your Wife.  That is alll...  And in the end, they both...... as my pals, told me the truth...... and i respect them for that!  And that is all... nothing for us to judge, but oNLY for the Almighty crazy creator cool mighty God!

 I think people will respect people when you tell the truth and be honest about things. Problems will be solve quicker and to give the honest reasons... will only humble yourself and others...Is okay to fight, but in the end we got to be honest with ourselves and FORGIVE,  and admit OUR OWN FAULTS..... and again FORGIVE becos EVERYBODY FUCKS UP!

So again, when someone is confronting you about the truth, try not to denied it.




The truth about marriage is that when people get marry, they should married someone not just base on looks, sex, fun to be with, so cute, her smile, his jokes, you know what i'm saying, cause all those are just stuff people in to have in a marriage.... but the truth is, let's say , you think that you found that perfect someone, but think... in this world there will always be someone out there more attractive , pretty, sweet, beautiful skin, those biceps, sensitive, kind, humble, smart, honey, sweetie, blah blah blah blah blah..... the truth is that everyone one day will be "OVERWEIGHT and OUT of SHAPE"





So when you know that you found that one you love, that is the ONE or the FUCKING one.... how ever you want to choose it.   That or This...... Is IT.... Marriage is not simple and you got to keep up the growth in maturity and be attractive, like being humble and present yourself nicely for your LOVE... not to dress up to attractive others...

Like in Europe... everyone is dress fashionably nicely neatly for one another.  Its not really even about attracting the opposite sex.  And its not really even about how rich or how poor you are either.  Its just simply about FASHy-iON!   To look different or looking the same.... its the latest fashion. The trend of the moment and era and i love, everyone just dress whatever they like and no one really looks down on you.  How do we tell what era were in from le-photos??? By Fashion and other things of course.

Sex in a marriage ..... only will only have its certain thrills.  Bcos everything is exciting when it is fresh.
So when it gets dull and boring (been up-there and done all that), that is probably the results of immature marriage.  Sometimes we tend to cheat our own heart and rush into things.

Of course, not all marriage problem is due to sex, but alot has to do with it.  Keeping attractiveness, oh that attractions which will only wrinkle like a tree.




This is the truth .....in a super sarcastic way of course, really now.

Living with one another is very hard. That is the truth also. We tend to judge people by RACE. As if another race is better or worst than the other... Every human race in this world is the same.

You know, people always tend to dogged on China People, people tend to criticize that it is Made in China! I heard that from alot of folks at the Airport and all of them from America.......Everything is "Made in China"... What the heck is everyone chirping about? Cause the Truth is, we are the one who open factories in China for cheap labor. How can we blame China? When in fact it is the labels the Brand Names that take it to China beocos of cheaper labor.  Labor that no one wants to do here in the United States.  Also it will be way too expensive to hire the American minimum wages... get it????

Well... this is the truth.. this will keep on going and going.... today is Made in China, tomorrow will be Made in India, and next Made in Indonesia or which ever country is still in development.... You can't really say that this is exploiting  of any sort ,i think we are actually helping a country to learn something new with technology. And also giving them jobs. But at the same time....AS the boss should also treat them like people with sameness and not abuse ..... and give them a good condition working environment (like a super low budget Google)...with benefits and good fair pay! People will respect the boss, and the people will be happy to make QUALITY Goods... you know what i'm saying??? You want a happy worker, not an underpay unhappy worker. When we put ourselves in to their positions, we will realize that i don't want to be treated that way. Ahhhhh... it alll hard...

you know.... we DEMAND for the products to be cheap, so that is why it is mostly Made in China. So ask yourself this question, it is China's fault or the Bosses or Brands like Gaps, Benneton, Banana blah blah blah....

Anyways, i went on a mini- Europe trip to Paris, London, & Barcelona... i acknowledge alot of things about us as human races. I have come across some of the nicest white folks from Baltimore, New York, Washington, and they all just talk to me with kindness and real too... Honestly, i'm scare of being in a white folks town... i always get the stare down. I don't know... maybe its just me being paranoid from childhood racism and stuff... going on this Euro trip also make me paranoid... so this is the truth.

But i'm glad that i got to go on this trip .... all thanks to my Auntie C! Who is the best and the worst. Anyways, We all just need to RESPECT and learn to not judge each other, cause i think i judge white folks and white folks judge me back. I don't know...

But i can tell you i meet alot of great white folks from London, Paris, & Barcelona... but as i love to speak the stupid truth... the truth is, of course there is snare from the rich and the poor. And also jealousy of one race over the other.... this is the TRUTH... if you got the money and the vacation time, go out there and don't judge other's culture and just try their food and their language and be polite, people will treat you nice and with respect. And that i have experience many times... i am not a complete good person, but i try my best to respect all HUMan race. i think culture is so fun and exciting and important for us humans to embrace that experience is just fucking wonderful! And people being helpful to you and not wanting to cheap money out of you..........from all this respect you will only know........ that they will also try their best to try to understand other's culture without judgment.

Like me, i just think i'm a human race.... cause i was born in Hong Kong and a 1 years old we move back to Taiwan (if you don't know where Taiwan is, hahahah... check Wikipedia out!) and around 7 years old, we moved to the United States.... And during my childhood i had to endure alot of Racism from just every coner of race. Basically i'm asain decent and born in Hong Kong, so that means I'm from Hong Kong, China. And becos i grew up with fond memories of Taiwan, i would sometime consider myself as Taiwanese but what the hey.... its still Chinese and HUman ..... i think. But then now that I'm a U.S. citizen, i'm consider from L.A.)...  BUT...........some people don't consider me American, cause i was not born here, and Chinese don't consider me as Chinese becos to them I'm too Americanize for them... So there is this stupid judgment for myself. But now, i don't give a fuck about all that shit, cos the Truth is that Heaven is my home and we are the Human Race bitches! Don't forget that.


More truth to come.






please forgive my cursing...

What does "amen" mean?

“Amen” is a Hebrew word that stems from the word aman, which means “to be faithful, support, or confirm.” The word “amen” actually means, “so be it,” or “truly.”

Therefore, when we end our prayers with "amen," we are re-affirming our dedication to God through Jesus Christ. We also use it to confirm a statement (i.e., when the pastor says something powerful out of the Word of God, and members of the congregation say "Amen").


***I did not write this is taken from http://www.raptureready.com/faq/faq363.html

Church All Divided Unequally

Dear diary,

Church is very much divided. It is divided by RACE, AGE, CULTURE ETC.
And the TRUTH IS, NO ONE REALLY LIKE TO BE EXPOSE of the TRUTH! THATS THE TRUTH!

So far in America, lots of Churches i visited is always just one kind of people there. one kind of people meaning the same-same.

For example... the Church that i attended is made up of all Chinese and not just any kind of Chinese, but about 80% of the Chinese is of TAI-Shan background.

And when i visited a few churches in Walnut (where my parents live)... it was mostly White People in this one church... and another Church in Walnut, it was all Chinese but not just any type of Chinese, but 90% Taiwanese. And another one near Walnut, its all Hispanics... and another one is all Filipinos... And one near where i live in Chinatown... its all Korean and another other is all African American... And you know what.... there is even a Church for hipsters! Oh and one more... WE Christians really love to judge this .... (drum roll please) Catholics... Why oh why??? I meet alot of Catholics during my work at the Alzheimer center for old folks... yes, a lot of Catholics might not read the bible... but they know Love just as much as us, so called Christians.... so why can't SOME Christians stop saying Catholics will not make it into Heaven... is like Christians can predict what God thinks???  Why can't we  Just LOVE... what the heck! 

SO What the heck is going on here???? It is already bad enough that we are divided by denomination, but yet, we Christian divide ourselves into groups of Christians?

Aren't we Christians suppose to be ONE? but why are people driving ONE hour or 45mins, to just to get to that one church when there is alot of good Churches near by our home?

So are we judging and saying that the Church near you home (walking distance) is not good enough for us? And if we say that the preacher sucks... we suck too... becos, we should be supporting the preacher man as long as he is loving and stick to the TRUTH, even if his preaching sucks... just support and pray that his preaching will be better!

i don't know... the church that i go to is near my house, is just walking distances, i can run down the hill and in 1 mins or 2mins i can get to my church...

and my church have a big parking problem. becos everyone on Sunday, people drive from all over the place to just to get to this our Church in Chinatown. So people will drive 1 hour and some 45 mins and some 20 mins. etc. etc. etc. Is like dude??? really now? is the church near your home (walking distance) really really really that bad?? Is the church near your home too demonic for you to go to ??

And if you gonna say.... "well, i moved BUT i've been attending this Church for 3 years and i just want to be with so and so... and this Church i have been at for 3 years needs me here to do worship... "

*****(NOT ENOUGH Worship bands?????....WHAT A JOKE...... in my church... you have to sign up and maybe wait half a year or a year on a waiting list.... Just so you can get your chance to showoff and sing on stage. there's like a whole lots and lots that wants to do music.)

Welll..... really now.....................  Think about it..............person of FAITH...... now that you have moved to a new area, God has given you a new Church to serve, to meet new people and NEED YOUR HELP for Worship in your new Church... So you don't need to drive 5 hours every Sunday, just to get to your Social Clubbing old Church!    you know.... in the Bible, God move people everywhere just so HIS people can experience new things.... an adventure... is about expanding your mind to understanding this life... that's why He created a UNIVERSE for us..... to EXPLORE... it ain't about the SAME-SAME and sticking with your christian Cliques.... like the 12 disciples, God had to separate them, so they can go out and let the truth be known.... the 12 didn't always just hang out TOgether and drink milk and go bowling and little clap our hand birthday parties and hiking and having bike rides happpily together... seriously now...

If we want to hang out... we can hang out in Heaven (eternally) ..... oh my gosh.... that is like forever dudes.  Now that we are on Earth, lets do the work....!

I'm sorry for the cheap sarcasm and foul words. But really now, its the only way to keep you awake from reading what i'm saying!! ( and please don't have a heart attack from reading this, cause you will!)

So ask ourself this question "ARe you going to church for God, becos you want to learn about who God is.. and know how you can go out and tell others about Jesus and do whatever we're called for and go home to Heaven one day."






or





"Are we going to church for friends/comfort same-sameness ...jocks and jocks, geeks and geeks, artist and artist, old and old, young and young, black and black, white and white, blue and blue, yellow and yellow, etc and etc and etc?"

Is your church like my church??? where the young sits on the left side and the middle age and Young married couples sit in the middle section and the OLD folks in their late teen 80's sits on the far right!... Wow so organize and divide by age and cliques! and you can be at my church for 50 years and not really know anyone... see even inside the BUILDING, the church divide themselves... ***(REMEMBER..... WE PEOPLE MAKE UP THE CHURCH, not the building)

How are we suppose to work as ONE when we purposely just like to be separated and segregated???

I mean ....come on... let's be real here... why are we dividing ourselves like this? I thought we are Christians??? I'm sure God didn't say "Hey, why is there a black guy in that white Church? " Or "What is that Chinese doing in ALL Mexican style church... he' style is not Mexican enough" Or "Everyone of you should just stick to your own kind... that is the Church!"

Seriously.... think about it! Be honest to yourselve now!

Stop making excuses and say silly childish things like "God has a purpose for me in this church to drive 45miles to get to church on Sunday and be LATE and sleepy during sermon and not hear a thing and so i can make a mess with the neighborhood with the car noise and making the church spending wasted money on building parking structures just so i can happily attend my SAME-SaME kind of people that is like me kind of Church. (Social Club!)

You know somewhere in the Bible... the Gospel of John talks about the Vine and the branches etc. As Jesus is the Vine and we are the branches... so like a tree.. is all link as ONE.

If we should all link as ONE as Jesus said, than why is it so hard for us Christians to understand that there is a perfectly good church near by your home that you should go to and not judge???????????????

Is like why do we purposely divide ourselves????????????????????????????????????????????????!

I don't know... i hate going to a separated Church, the way we Christians try make ourselves look good when we're NOT... i hate division.... and racism... its all stupid.

Going out of the way to find the same kind is Prejudice and kind of Racism!

Dude, we humans are all the same kind, we eat, we sleep, and we shit! 

Wake UP Christians! Don't let Satan divide Us! He's laughing at the Christian Church! Try and go to the Church nearest to your home (as long as it is not a Cult)... But do go to a Church near your home. That Church will most likely need your service and your help. Remember Church is Church and it is not about how big your Church is. If i was a preacher in a church, i wouldn't mind if i only have 10 people in God's Church, cos it is NOT MY, ME, I church...

And if i had 10,000 folks attending the Church that i preach to. I would tell them, if you got to drive 1 hours to even 5 mins. to this church, you better go back to your home church that God has provided for you and lead you near your home. Stop searching for people. Church is Church and it is all the same (if they preach base on the Bible).

You know, if i get to choose, i choose Calvary Chapel. But then i be choosing preacher and popularity. I am no better if i done that... So please.....


Spread OUT!  BRANCH OUT!  STOP Making Church SOCIAL CLUB!

Love+One



Peace and God Bless Us to wake Up!

Move back home 8/31/2011

Dear diary,

its been about 3 months since i note about my job as a caregiver for old folks with Alzheimer's disease.

Well... i have quit around June. It was easy and difficult to quit. I quit becos i was so unhappy working with the caregivers there. i don't want talk crap too much about people, cos i ain't perfect either, but geeeee they really don't give a f about these old folks. Everyone is just waiting to go home and these girls (in my morning shift is all girls and ladies)all day long they just sms.

At end i quit and went back to make art.

I really miss all the old folks alot, i really hope the caregivers will treat them better. Please pray for all of them or for old folks at carecenters. pray that people will love and care and love.

i don't know... life is simply about living and enjoying the company of one another, that is why God created people around you that comes into your life.

life was never about competition (healthy fun ones yes!) and for status- upper class to lower class to power to money to all things that separate humans into groups and cliques...

Life simply is just sharing helping caring loving one another.

All the rest of our life is all about CREATIVITY. Think about it...God implanted those creative energy in all of us to creative. that is why we human always will be creating, never ending. We humans just love to create and be creative. But remember Satan can use our creativity and twist it and so we do bad with our creativity, cause we get influenced by Satan. Get it?

Its hard to explain...

What i'm trying to say is... lets just try to love and help each other out... Not judge and put hate on it, but simply "overcome Evil with Goood!" Romans 12:21

welll... its time to move back to my hometown Taiwan.

More stories to come and hopfully a big adventure... Taiwan is 90% Buddhist, so i will see how i can share the Truth with them.

Peace and God Bless Us All!

Protest around the world!

5/26/2011 Time

Dear diary,

Boy, does time goes by fast, it was almost the end of the world and then its already the 26th of May 2011.

well... its been about a month since the car accident that i had and Thank God that everything went smoothly without any problems like dealing with the law since its already bad enough that it was a hit and run. Well my car is definetly a total lost but i got 10,800 and most importantly i have my life with no broken bones or bloody scratches... nothing.  Just muscle neck pains, which is 95% gone and i just need to massage it, get the blood clog out.  Did an xray check and nothing!  hahaha God is good. 

again this accident woke me up about life... cause i was getting bore with it and wondering why is the world in such a big mess.... all this war and politics and stuff its all about power and money and luxury. if only if we all just enjoy each others culture and learn from one another, boy we could end world hunger...for real. if we are concern for each others health and not personal wealth, everyone would be so lovingly happy hahaha. but i was being very pesemmestic about it...life.

still working at the Alzheimer's center for the old folks as a caretaker. Sometimes it can be soooo crazy and sometimes so peaceful and the best part is the drama there. Like losing a pair of glasses can be stupid and dramatic.... well this lady name Mrs.Rosy, she is around 87 years old and mighty healthy for her age....  and shecan fight like one mean mother... if you know what i mean....this one day she goes:

Mrs. Rosy: "I can't find my glasses, honey.   Do you know where they are son?.... I think someone just took them from me, they snatch it out of my eye... those dammed kids, help me call the police!"

Me: "uhhhhhaaaaa Mrs.Rosy ummm remember,  i just gave them to you???

Mrs.Rosy: "Listen to me now, old granny isn't in denial, i know i don't remember things now, but i know a boy came and grab the glasses from me! Call the police!

So we go and on and on and on with the conversation and finally i decided to look in her room and there it was in her drawers. Than when i give it back to her, she be like....

Mrs.Rosy: OHHHH WEeee... really! i didn't know i left them in my drawers.... I must be going seniall... Thank you sonny! thank you! Now old granny can see again...


then 2 hours later, one of the Supervisor comes to me and firmlllly goes...

Supervisor: Did you give Rosy her glasses.... well she said you didn't.

Me: i guess she lost it or put it in her room or something...

then i go and check and found nothing.... so this Supervisor FIRMLy goes...

Supervisor: Well... how could she of lost her glasses??? Did her glasses just walked away? my glasses don't just walk away! Does your glasses walk away by itself?

Me:  Come on Mrs.Supervisor i did give her the glasses, but she hides them.

I was like??? huh what is wrong with her??? Anyways, i was a bit piss, but kind of laugh at her childish way of talking, cause doesn't she know that we work with folks with Alzhimer's????

So that is the drama at work...

and ummmm... about 3 weeks ago, a lady by the name of Mrs.Heaven, she passed away this one day in Unit B which is a Unit with mostly old folks in wheel chair and that doesn't really move. i don't know who Mrs.Heaven is, but my Supervisor told me that we as caretakers must all pay respect to the gone. So this was kind-of my first time seeing a dead body right in front of me by myself. The feeling was kind of freaky... all i did was say a little prayer knowing that she is with Him. anyways, her face was light green/blue.... and it was very stiff and her face was somewhat peaceful... . Afterwards, one of the caregivers told me that if it was one of our own resident in our Unit pass away, we would have to give that person/decease a nice clean shower... so that kind of freak me out.

sooooo... about  a month later, a lady by the name of "Mrs.Kitty" who is about 93 years old and smoked alot of cigarettes in her younger day... a chain smoker. During lunch times, she would always cough and cough and cough. Well, that one day she couldn't breath... and her eyes was close...all she did was spitting out a massive lugie/ saliva. So we had to slap her face to wake her up and nothing happened, so we took her to her room and put on this air thingy to her mouth and called the Ambulance and a team came and took her away. one of the caregiver cried... but i know that if anything happens Mrs.Kitty will be in a better place and i couldn't stop thinking about her shower.... i know i know that's not important, the important thing is that alot of people will miss her and be sad. well... all i can say is i will see everyone in Heaven!

As for Mr.PearlHarbor, the old dude who accuse me of being too friendly to the ladies.... hehehe... if that was true, i be fried or Fired by now or that week. What i had to undo all this mess was to pray for peace with Mr.PrealHarbor and for God to give us peace and love to us and now it seems like Mr.PearlHarbor feels really bad for saying such ridicules accusation about me for being a Sex Manic for Old Lady (cool band name huh?)... so now a group of us are always playing Yantze and poker and dominos. Which is fun, but it gets old really fast. I still haven't try the Mahjong just yet, since it is a complicated game. I thought about bringing my Monopoly, since i don't even play it at home, but i hate to see this special Simpson's Monopoly set to be mess up with coffee stains and have pieces missing and people taking the money (cause they like to take things and say its theirs!).  Well  Mr.PearlHarbor said that it is too complicated, but i defer his comlicatedness and say.... There should be NO limit to anything with the word "try"... if we don't try, how do we know?

just for record... i was craving for Taiwanese Pork Chop rice from LolliCup... mmmmmmmm....

Please pray for all things with Faith and as we should say "the Church has left the building to shine where darkness dims" ...So question yourself this? Whats the point of having a bunch of flashlights flashing at one another when there are many unlit lights out there?  Isn't it more useful to flash your lights somewhere dark and dim that needs your light to lite a a dim-light?



Please pray for all of us and folks you love and people you know not to have Alzheimer's Disease! Cause it is really mess up!

Peace and God Bless Us! 

*All the names is change for the respect of people and protection.... Thanks!"