Painless Day (2/12/2011)

*The names have been changed to protect the folks and privacy, thanks"

Dear diary,

The prayers from everyone really works! Thanks so much and please please please keep on praying. The things is... God's answered prayer is always realstic and if we stop and listen, He will always lead you to the answer.

Even with this Hernia, it is a lesson on not being frustrated or anxious or worried. Cause, the lump is still there, but the pain was gone... till i got angry with LoveMaMa and it became painful. So you know our whole body system is related to one another, scientist has and have and is always been doing research on God's creation. Think about our cells, how it moves and functions its like all set up and cordinated as one set up and puzzled it together. So one part of your body will react to it. So anger can lead to unhappiness with your body, cause maybe some CELLs are not doing nomral thing.... like out of order...

This video just shows us how detail can one little Cell be... God is a crazy mad scientist!



Today working as a care taker for Alzheimer's disease for old folks was nerve wrecking and peacefully working togeter with LoveMama. She didn't yell and she only rasied her voice at the right time... like someone taking each others food and stuff. So please pray that she really becomes LOVEmama! Then we can focus on being creative rather just worried about making bed and stuff. This job can be so fun if we want to! Cause we are baiscally the babysitter of these old folks. And trust me, they are like babies!

One might think that old folks are all sweet and nice and tender and peaceful. They can be pretty mean and evil. Like this one lady SneakyLucy, i don't know, but she knows everything. I don't think she really has Alzheimer's disease, but just will repeat certain thing. Funny thing is, everyone talks about their SON! Anyways, SneakyLucy would always mock the person sitting next to her and she'll say "Ask her what's her name and she doesn't know... hahahahaha"

And i don't know, they are like babies... they really don't know if they wet their diapers or not and plus some don't even know if they ate their foods or not, so it can be really mess up!

This one lady LittlePIPPI who reminds me of a grouchy 8 years that just want to sleep in bed all day. And she always makes a big old fuzz about us always telling her what to do and she always says "NO... NO ... N.... O.... NO, I will NOT go the DINNING Hall with you!" and I would always have to be like a parent or teacher and say "Well now LittlePippi, you can't sleep in bed all day, you will get a headach, come on.... let's go and get some juice and some yummy delicious breakfast! Oh... i'm so hungry just thinking about it!" And she would shout "I Will NOt GO!" then i go " Okay! LittlePippi, its time to get UP!" then she gets up all grouchy but she will smile at the dinning her and sometimes she will eat 2 bites and sometimes the whole plate." But lately, she has been ill or something and 2 days ago...she fainted. I don't know what to say and do about these things. We try so bad to feed her and try to keep her awake, but she just really puts up a big old fight! Sigh... please pray for LittlePippi!

This week, i haven't had time to really talk to any of them except today with Mr. Miyaki who really wants an exercise bike. So today i saw his daughter agian and told her that she should consider one for him to exericse his leg and use that part of the brain.

This is important, since our brian is like a computer, different part of the brain do different types of things... so if one part of the brain is damage...that part you have to retrain it again and you can repare it relearning! I don't know... this is just a theory.

Please pray that i shouldn't care about office gossips and junks of that sort... i really just want to have peace and do the best i can and f off and go home and do art and eat dinner! Really, i'm really too old and too tried for office gossips... Thanks!!!

One thing i learned from working with the other Caregivers here is that as long as we forgive, God will always be here and there for us! Also i need to be tougher. Its all about ATTITUDE.





*The names have been changed to protect the folks and privacy, thanks"