Awake! (4/27/2011)

Dear diary,

you know the thing is... we all take life way too seriously.  After my car accident last week, i was just that i am still alive and healthy and is not handle cap of any sort.

After the car accident that day, i wok up suddenly from my ways of living and thinking again.  I realize that as long as i am healthy, i am happy!  Becos with out health, you basically can't do alot of certain things.  So health is important and to know that my car is gone from a hit and run, i should say that people can make mistakes. So its okay to have a crazy exicitng day, it change my life and it change my ways.

Its been 5 days now, and my neck is still in pain, but the good news is that it is not a slip disc or a dislocation spine, now that would be a Pain in the you know where and it can be for life time if is not cure right.

  But good thing my pain is all realted to muscle and blood clog internally.  So i have to massage it out!  I thought about going to chiroprater but there is alot of bad ones out there and it can mess up your spine even more.

 And yes, i am a bit freaked out, cos it was like numb and stiff the second when i woke up and i just thought, who cares about the car, having no money, etc.  I want my neck back!!!   So health is all we need.  You can have all the money and stuff but you will feel misery with pain and just end up not caring for any thing but for HEALTH!!!

Basically we got to know our body, if this 5 days of the pain didn't become less and less, then it would be a big problem.  So please pray for me and for the other guy that was in the injury!

And you know what?   Swimming is a great way to heal your back pains, neck pains, etc...

10 years ago i had a slipped disc.  And boy was it painful.  At that time, i smoked cigarette about 1 pack a day.  And since i was living in Singapore, you tend to go out more at night cause there's always events and stuff in the city and  i would stay out late and smoke and eat alot of food. That might feel good, but it will really mess you up in health wise!

So when i had the slipped disc, i didn't listen to the doctor and kept up with my unhealthy lifestyle and i didn't exercise.   And at that time i had to morning exercise for my back and i didn't really do it.

When i return to the United States it became so painful that one day i couldn't move my body!  I didn't know God and doctors didn't help....  when i finally had less pain to walk ....... i walked  like i was either an 90 year old man or a pregnant woman.  I was crying like a baby one day, cause i didn't know what to do...hehehe    So my mom force me to join the gym and told me to go swimming.  And she was so kind and loving to pay for the gym and it took one year to heal my slipped disc and boy was it worth it!!!  NO SURGERY needed!  and now i do split and horse stand and other exercise to make my back stronger!

Anyways... i just need to talk about my joy for having my neck back to almost normal. Its still sore, but no more pain.

Work is great as a caretaker at the Alzheimer's center for old folks.  haha with my neck back, i forever  happier to serve them and take their daily abusive languages and wipe their butt and take their poop away with JOY!  That is how great i feel about having health back.  Its the true important of life!!!

Well, remember Le Marge... the lady who i thought was demon posses (but she's not)... she's moved to another UNIT.  Le Marge was getting on everyone's nerves, she basically want full attention on HER.  She will purposely get up when we serve breakfast and want to walk outside.  And she's been spitting, cursing, giving me the middle finger, calling people AH's, taking people's food, irritating the other residence, making people to do things her way, talking dirty, hahaha...  funny thing is, now that she is not in our UNIT, i feel bore sometimes.  I guess i miss that crazy old lady... so i visit her at the other UNIT, i notice something different about Le Marge....now she is all calm and she's play with a toy kitty cat.  She use to hate it when i give her children's and lego toys but now she acts like some 8 years old princess.  And when i see her, she is all so sweet and kind and she would say "There you are!  How are you sweettie?"  It is so weird.

 Other Caretaker tells me that Le Marge is more calm at that certain Unit is becos of the number of people.  When she was at our UNIT, total is all was around 27 to 30 elderly. At her current Unit, there is only 8 people in all.  So she has all the attention she wants and she even found this guys who she proclaims that this is her husband.  And they would be walking down the hallway everyone pounding on other Unit's door demanding "LET US OUT!  GDI"

Again, Carecenters for old folks is not the best way to care for your love ones.  Old folks are like kids/children/babies so they feel needed and lonely and just want some comfort.  So... you know if in the future, if you have parents that need caring, don't just send them to a carecenter if you can take care of them.  You just have to think, our parents took care of us when we were young, so its time to help out, that is all.

Cos i can tell you, if i was to put in that center for life... i rather not live... is really meaningless... but there is a brighter place afterwards!

A great day here in good old L.A.  Sunny and warm and my neck is getting better!

God Bless Us All!