5/26/2011 Time

Dear diary,

Boy, does time goes by fast, it was almost the end of the world and then its already the 26th of May 2011.

well... its been about a month since the car accident that i had and Thank God that everything went smoothly without any problems like dealing with the law since its already bad enough that it was a hit and run. Well my car is definetly a total lost but i got 10,800 and most importantly i have my life with no broken bones or bloody scratches... nothing.  Just muscle neck pains, which is 95% gone and i just need to massage it, get the blood clog out.  Did an xray check and nothing!  hahaha God is good. 

again this accident woke me up about life... cause i was getting bore with it and wondering why is the world in such a big mess.... all this war and politics and stuff its all about power and money and luxury. if only if we all just enjoy each others culture and learn from one another, boy we could end world hunger...for real. if we are concern for each others health and not personal wealth, everyone would be so lovingly happy hahaha. but i was being very pesemmestic about it...life.

still working at the Alzheimer's center for the old folks as a caretaker. Sometimes it can be soooo crazy and sometimes so peaceful and the best part is the drama there. Like losing a pair of glasses can be stupid and dramatic.... well this lady name Mrs.Rosy, she is around 87 years old and mighty healthy for her age....  and shecan fight like one mean mother... if you know what i mean....this one day she goes:

Mrs. Rosy: "I can't find my glasses, honey.   Do you know where they are son?.... I think someone just took them from me, they snatch it out of my eye... those dammed kids, help me call the police!"

Me: "uhhhhhaaaaa Mrs.Rosy ummm remember,  i just gave them to you???

Mrs.Rosy: "Listen to me now, old granny isn't in denial, i know i don't remember things now, but i know a boy came and grab the glasses from me! Call the police!

So we go and on and on and on with the conversation and finally i decided to look in her room and there it was in her drawers. Than when i give it back to her, she be like....

Mrs.Rosy: OHHHH WEeee... really! i didn't know i left them in my drawers.... I must be going seniall... Thank you sonny! thank you! Now old granny can see again...


then 2 hours later, one of the Supervisor comes to me and firmlllly goes...

Supervisor: Did you give Rosy her glasses.... well she said you didn't.

Me: i guess she lost it or put it in her room or something...

then i go and check and found nothing.... so this Supervisor FIRMLy goes...

Supervisor: Well... how could she of lost her glasses??? Did her glasses just walked away? my glasses don't just walk away! Does your glasses walk away by itself?

Me:  Come on Mrs.Supervisor i did give her the glasses, but she hides them.

I was like??? huh what is wrong with her??? Anyways, i was a bit piss, but kind of laugh at her childish way of talking, cause doesn't she know that we work with folks with Alzhimer's????

So that is the drama at work...

and ummmm... about 3 weeks ago, a lady by the name of Mrs.Heaven, she passed away this one day in Unit B which is a Unit with mostly old folks in wheel chair and that doesn't really move. i don't know who Mrs.Heaven is, but my Supervisor told me that we as caretakers must all pay respect to the gone. So this was kind-of my first time seeing a dead body right in front of me by myself. The feeling was kind of freaky... all i did was say a little prayer knowing that she is with Him. anyways, her face was light green/blue.... and it was very stiff and her face was somewhat peaceful... . Afterwards, one of the caregivers told me that if it was one of our own resident in our Unit pass away, we would have to give that person/decease a nice clean shower... so that kind of freak me out.

sooooo... about  a month later, a lady by the name of "Mrs.Kitty" who is about 93 years old and smoked alot of cigarettes in her younger day... a chain smoker. During lunch times, she would always cough and cough and cough. Well, that one day she couldn't breath... and her eyes was close...all she did was spitting out a massive lugie/ saliva. So we had to slap her face to wake her up and nothing happened, so we took her to her room and put on this air thingy to her mouth and called the Ambulance and a team came and took her away. one of the caregiver cried... but i know that if anything happens Mrs.Kitty will be in a better place and i couldn't stop thinking about her shower.... i know i know that's not important, the important thing is that alot of people will miss her and be sad. well... all i can say is i will see everyone in Heaven!

As for Mr.PearlHarbor, the old dude who accuse me of being too friendly to the ladies.... hehehe... if that was true, i be fried or Fired by now or that week. What i had to undo all this mess was to pray for peace with Mr.PrealHarbor and for God to give us peace and love to us and now it seems like Mr.PearlHarbor feels really bad for saying such ridicules accusation about me for being a Sex Manic for Old Lady (cool band name huh?)... so now a group of us are always playing Yantze and poker and dominos. Which is fun, but it gets old really fast. I still haven't try the Mahjong just yet, since it is a complicated game. I thought about bringing my Monopoly, since i don't even play it at home, but i hate to see this special Simpson's Monopoly set to be mess up with coffee stains and have pieces missing and people taking the money (cause they like to take things and say its theirs!).  Well  Mr.PearlHarbor said that it is too complicated, but i defer his comlicatedness and say.... There should be NO limit to anything with the word "try"... if we don't try, how do we know?

just for record... i was craving for Taiwanese Pork Chop rice from LolliCup... mmmmmmmm....

Please pray for all things with Faith and as we should say "the Church has left the building to shine where darkness dims" ...So question yourself this? Whats the point of having a bunch of flashlights flashing at one another when there are many unlit lights out there?  Isn't it more useful to flash your lights somewhere dark and dim that needs your light to lite a a dim-light?



Please pray for all of us and folks you love and people you know not to have Alzheimer's Disease! Cause it is really mess up!

Peace and God Bless Us! 

*All the names is change for the respect of people and protection.... Thanks!"

4/30/2011

Dear diary,

I don't know... should i laugh or should i cry or should i be angry or should i just die.   you know one thing i hate and try not to do it JUDGE.....  juding people is screw up...  so this is the deal...

So i work as a caretaker at the old folks for Alzheimer's center.  This man name Mr.PearlHarbor comes to visit his wife everyday.  Very indeed sweet of him to love his wife so much and visits her everyday. I like this man Mr.PearlHarbor, he's kind and supportive to the elders and trys to make everyone play games.  And i talk to him like a friend and he tells us interesting stories.  He even knew about my car accident last and seems very concern for me.   Well.. recently he went and told the boss that I was too friendly with the ladies.!!!!??? Mr.PearlHarbor thinks i'm too loving with the old ladies!!!

It was a shocker to me and also to the people i work with.  I mean, i treat all of them (Oldman and Oldlady) with RESPECT!  And alot of them don't have visitors and just look like they are dying of boredom and sadness, so i give them a loving GODLY JESUS hug and i treat them like my grandma and grandpas.  It just freaking folking motherfolking pisses me off when i'm just try to LOVE people with some hugs and respect.

Folkman and sometimes, is like gosh do i have to hug this smelly mean old lady??? But i do it becos i want to see them smile and feel wanted in this world for that little one minute.  GEee freaking folking WEEZZZ~   It just angers me that Mr.PearlHarbor acts all nice to me and goes behind my back to stab me!  I'm not angry with him but am dissapointed that i love him as a good friend.  And gosh, if he is jealous of me trying to walk his wife to the restroom without her FALLING, then what kind of CAREGIVER am I????

But really, if it was not for the truth (Jesus Christ), there is no way i would work at this job for this kind of pay and take this stabbing from Mr.PearlHarbor.  I would indeed stab back twice as hard as him...
So that is why i need Jesus.   That is why i just have to realize that this is just too funny!  And

P.S. please for give me for my rudeness of lauguage used.   this is the only way to exxxpress my feelings in a healthy scientific way without causing any fight or arguments or any whatevers.

Okay... i feel much better now!

So please pray for me and Mr.PearlHarbor that we be good friends and let him observe me and the old ladies that i talk to closely... Gee and its always the old ladies that have the most freaking complaints!  And how to calm an old ladies and her complaints???? You first have to say "sorry blah blah blah..." give them a hugs and tell them they look really good today and smell their stinky stinks!

God Bless All Of US OF EARTH!

Awake! (4/27/2011)

Dear diary,

you know the thing is... we all take life way too seriously.  After my car accident last week, i was just that i am still alive and healthy and is not handle cap of any sort.

After the car accident that day, i wok up suddenly from my ways of living and thinking again.  I realize that as long as i am healthy, i am happy!  Becos with out health, you basically can't do alot of certain things.  So health is important and to know that my car is gone from a hit and run, i should say that people can make mistakes. So its okay to have a crazy exicitng day, it change my life and it change my ways.

Its been 5 days now, and my neck is still in pain, but the good news is that it is not a slip disc or a dislocation spine, now that would be a Pain in the you know where and it can be for life time if is not cure right.

  But good thing my pain is all realted to muscle and blood clog internally.  So i have to massage it out!  I thought about going to chiroprater but there is alot of bad ones out there and it can mess up your spine even more.

 And yes, i am a bit freaked out, cos it was like numb and stiff the second when i woke up and i just thought, who cares about the car, having no money, etc.  I want my neck back!!!   So health is all we need.  You can have all the money and stuff but you will feel misery with pain and just end up not caring for any thing but for HEALTH!!!

Basically we got to know our body, if this 5 days of the pain didn't become less and less, then it would be a big problem.  So please pray for me and for the other guy that was in the injury!

And you know what?   Swimming is a great way to heal your back pains, neck pains, etc...

10 years ago i had a slipped disc.  And boy was it painful.  At that time, i smoked cigarette about 1 pack a day.  And since i was living in Singapore, you tend to go out more at night cause there's always events and stuff in the city and  i would stay out late and smoke and eat alot of food. That might feel good, but it will really mess you up in health wise!

So when i had the slipped disc, i didn't listen to the doctor and kept up with my unhealthy lifestyle and i didn't exercise.   And at that time i had to morning exercise for my back and i didn't really do it.

When i return to the United States it became so painful that one day i couldn't move my body!  I didn't know God and doctors didn't help....  when i finally had less pain to walk ....... i walked  like i was either an 90 year old man or a pregnant woman.  I was crying like a baby one day, cause i didn't know what to do...hehehe    So my mom force me to join the gym and told me to go swimming.  And she was so kind and loving to pay for the gym and it took one year to heal my slipped disc and boy was it worth it!!!  NO SURGERY needed!  and now i do split and horse stand and other exercise to make my back stronger!

Anyways... i just need to talk about my joy for having my neck back to almost normal. Its still sore, but no more pain.

Work is great as a caretaker at the Alzheimer's center for old folks.  haha with my neck back, i forever  happier to serve them and take their daily abusive languages and wipe their butt and take their poop away with JOY!  That is how great i feel about having health back.  Its the true important of life!!!

Well, remember Le Marge... the lady who i thought was demon posses (but she's not)... she's moved to another UNIT.  Le Marge was getting on everyone's nerves, she basically want full attention on HER.  She will purposely get up when we serve breakfast and want to walk outside.  And she's been spitting, cursing, giving me the middle finger, calling people AH's, taking people's food, irritating the other residence, making people to do things her way, talking dirty, hahaha...  funny thing is, now that she is not in our UNIT, i feel bore sometimes.  I guess i miss that crazy old lady... so i visit her at the other UNIT, i notice something different about Le Marge....now she is all calm and she's play with a toy kitty cat.  She use to hate it when i give her children's and lego toys but now she acts like some 8 years old princess.  And when i see her, she is all so sweet and kind and she would say "There you are!  How are you sweettie?"  It is so weird.

 Other Caretaker tells me that Le Marge is more calm at that certain Unit is becos of the number of people.  When she was at our UNIT, total is all was around 27 to 30 elderly. At her current Unit, there is only 8 people in all.  So she has all the attention she wants and she even found this guys who she proclaims that this is her husband.  And they would be walking down the hallway everyone pounding on other Unit's door demanding "LET US OUT!  GDI"

Again, Carecenters for old folks is not the best way to care for your love ones.  Old folks are like kids/children/babies so they feel needed and lonely and just want some comfort.  So... you know if in the future, if you have parents that need caring, don't just send them to a carecenter if you can take care of them.  You just have to think, our parents took care of us when we were young, so its time to help out, that is all.

Cos i can tell you, if i was to put in that center for life... i rather not live... is really meaningless... but there is a brighter place afterwards!

A great day here in good old L.A.  Sunny and warm and my neck is getting better!

God Bless Us All!

alive (4/23/11)

Dear diary,

Aiiiiiii... life is just so unpredictible, but maybe thats the exciting part of life we love and hate. If is some good unpredictible thing like winning the lottery or a free trip etc. that is a good feeling... but if is some bad unpredictible situation happening like a car accident then it can kind of or really bug you.

Well, today was my dayoff and around 2pm i decided to go to the supermarket, as i was coming home crossing a 4 way street. A car (running a red light) comes toward me and hits my car'ss tail end and made my car spun counter clockwise and hit another car (which was an elderly driver who was on some sort of medication and didn't have any pants on when the firemen went and talk to him). The driver that caused this accidednt stop for a bit and then she/he just drove away when everyone wasn't looking. So this was a hit and run case. This sucks for both the elder guy and me, cause we don't have the man who ran the red light. There were some witnesses, but some didn't want to get involve and plus there was two lawyer dudes who was very helpful but at the same time they wanted to do business with me.

My car is totally gone (i think). I feel okay... emotionally. I just kept on thinking i'm still alive with no broken anything!!! Thank God! I mean, if i die than i will be with Him, but i truely didn't want to be injure with broken bone and have to cut a limb etc. Than that will be another kind of life to accept and adapt to, but it will be hard to get use to it. So I'm AM BLESSED that i can still walk and complain.... Gee WIZ!

oh yeah on 1John 4:19-20 (please read the blog before this)...
this is a tough one to do....to Love everyone>.... I know God really truely just want us to be cool with one another and not be mean or hateful to each childern... His children (makes us all brother and sisters). Since he created us all, He wants us to have freedom, at the same time, He doen't want us to kill each other! LOVE is HIS word. And its hard to love everyone, you know there's always people you can't stand or dislike, so that is the part where we have to love unconditionally. Is HARD, i struggle with it and try to practice unconditional love and hope that it will turn to true love in the heart. Anyways, this is a good reminder for moi.

God Bless Us All!

1John 4:20

1John19-21

19 We love because he first loved us. 20 Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. 21 And he has given us this command: Anyone who loves God must also love their brother and sister.

Cussing (4/12/11)

Dear diary,

Bad words i use to used so much that i got sick of it.... sick of myself sounding so rude.  I mean, i find nothing worng with bad word and expressing yourself once in a while... i  think its okay and people shouldn't feel offended by it... a word is a word (who cares right?)  But when one does it every 20 minutes, then your consider a cusser, some who just uses cussing as relgular everyday dialogue, thats not too good.

Yes, the Bible does talk about putting about foul expressing lanuages (like maybe the F word and the S word and the C word and the G word and many many other words.) There is a good reason, not a nerdy one either, but a very respecting one.  Cussing sounds rude... recently i saw a video tape of myself maybe like 8 years ago ( i was like cussing every other word litterlly).  I was like F this and that and MF and S and this wah... i sounded like an AH.  The Bible basiclly has storys and example of Love and teaching about Love and Love is not just about kissing and hugging and all that good stuff, but is mainly feeling... like respecting each other, respecting each other's feeling.  To respect each other you love each other.  And when you respect, you treat that person (even if you don't like them) without any judgement and prejudice base on looks or dress or status etc. etc. Throw all that junk away and the love and respect will come!  i hope this makes sense...

Cos i learn that at work at the Alzhimer center for old folks as a caretaker...  these old folks cuses like hell.  Everylittle thing that don't go their way, they will start cussing.  This old dude name OldManBill, boy does he curse a mouth full!  Once i told him that he need to take a shower, he put up a good fight... i said "its time to take your shower" OMB goes "What? Shower?  i don't want to a shower!"  as i try to convince him for like 3 mins, i said "your sons want you to take a shower..."  and OMB goes "Those Fing Cs! Don't listen to those AHs!  Leave me alone!" And this is daily cussing. Another granny... ShortyJane, boy does she hate God... when things don't go her way she will cuss at Jesus!  Is like man... what does Jesus got to do with it?  I'm thinking F man!  And she'll say "GDI the coffee is cold!"  i think out of all 30 residents, they all can cuss if they want to and need to.  And so far half of them curse daily. So please pray that they put away their foul mouth and foul laugange and behave like good repectful elders.

Today we had a monthly thingy, where play with pets.  So this lady who have rabbits, parrots, hamsters, dogs, but no cats haha... came over with her pets and everyone was scare and delighted with the little animals.

Oh yeah, in our dinning hall our TV is always on Fox, so at 1pm there is Dr. OZ and the other day they were talking about Alzheimer's disease.  i only saw a bit of it but, the discovery is that Alzheimer is preventable by the food you eat.  This is the important part, the bad food is PERSERVATIVE.  So its good to go organic or just don't by food with perservatives.  i'm still trying to find the Dr. Oz ep., but i found this... (i don't why they didn't talk about the perservative)...

(4/10/2011)

Dear diary,

Its been about 4 months since i worked at the Alzheimer's center for old folks.

Since i started working there i was weak and skinny and didn't exercise, so when i was lifting someone from the wheel chair to bed, i got a hernia.  It was a big lump sinking down near the testicles, so it was a big problem for me, since my new job was to take care of old folks.

I was so worried and i don't have money for surgery, so my only is to pray to God (in the name of Jesus Christ).  And He lead me to the answer on how to heal my hernia.  And the answer is exercise.... by exercising, you build muscles near the hernai area, as i do my yoga and horse stance and other various stretching exercises... the build up of the muscles pushes the hernia up (since i didn't exercise that area before, it was very weak).  So THANK YOU EVERYONE for your awesome prayers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At the old folks  center as a caretaker, there is one 96 years old lady that really bugs the heck out of me!  I wrote of her before and her name is Le Marge???  The lady i thought she was demonize?  Well, she isn't, but she is mean and just out of control.  She always pushes her food away and then spills the water on purpose and eat other people food and dessert and she just won't eat her own food.  She would say things like "I know thats your, do you want me to eat that for you?"  And people don't know any better and lets her have it.... She's  Like an 8 years old or 10 years old or something.   And sometimes she would grab my hand and want to kiss it and always wants my attention like she's in love with me or something, so this is totally gross out!!!  Also, she can be really funny at times, so i try my best to be nice and polite, but everytime when i'm nice to her, she would tell me to sit on her lap and this is the way she says it "Well... come on, honey... come here now... right here, right here!" and i'll just freaking ignore her and then she would shout louder "HEY i'm talking to you now!  Come here!" then she would laugh and laugh... sick and true!

Like i said before, one might think old folks are nice... WORNG!  Human is human, everyone have good days and bad days, that all i have to say.

Well, lots of things has happened, last month MeanMama and another Caretaker name ToughMama, both got caught yelling at the residents during my day off.  So when i got back to work, they told me the story and i was just in shock and cause i did pray about the yelling to stop and i did ask God to please either change their attitudes or bring in other folks.  And it happened....answered prayer again.  So now i work with 2 young ladies, (since MeanMama and ToughMama are in their 40's) and both of them are in their twenties and quite mature and they are nice to the residents!  But they don't really like being transfer to this Unie, since they are use to the work and the folks in their Unit.  So even though they work there longer then me, i still have to show them and help them with waking the residents up.

hmmmmm.... i'm just so glad that my hernia is going back in place and getting smaller (i say about 20% to go or maybe 30% at most).  Other then that, working with these old folks is just so fun, its like a sitcom everyday... in a fun and touching way.  Once they get to know you and trust you they just become a friend and whats important is to let them have fun and enjoy in the best possible way since this place is like a hotel with a room and lobby and a dinning area and the only chance they get to go out is when people visit them (which is not very often).  And the truth and sad thing is that, this is their last place to live before they die.  I ask many of the caretakers and those who work there for a year or so, all have experience someone dying there.   Its sad, but they are in a greater fun place call Heaven! hehe


Anyways, that is all for now and lets keep being healthy and trust and have faith in God!

Peace and God Bless ALL!