Worry is no Faith (3/9/2011)

Dear diary,

There is a few that is very important which i am learning at the Alzheimer's for old folks as a caretaker... which is honesty, trust, and schedule. i mean, i know that i got to be honest and stuff, but its hard sometimes when you just want to get away from getting in trouble or being embrass about it ect. And i know that there are words we can trust and some we can't trust. As for Schedule... that is something we all know but we don't fellow unless is for WORK that is PAY for.

Well... i'm new at this Cartaker job and also i never ever done this kind of job before. And i'm not married, so i never changed a diaper before, so there is alot of new things to learn and i don't think i'm a fast learner, but more of an explorer, thinking better ways to do things. But i never try to learn the basic things first and just try to make things better. There is nothing worng with imporving, but one must know the general basics first in order to slowly change things.

So as a new Caretaker, i have been just fellowing rules, regardless they are good or bad or why or meaningless, i just do them! To OPEN a person's eye, that person must understand why. If the person open his eye, he will not deny and see the why is so right, then change will come alive!

Working with LoveMama is that deal. She is getting nicer, but still have a foul attitude with the residents. What is foul attitude??? Yelling... which she claims that becos they are old they can hear well, which i agree and understands. But theating and shouting with bossing words has nothing to do with not hearing well. So please plase please pray for LoveMama, God is doing much work on her and ALL of us!

Since i'm always making little mistakes here and there... LoveMama loves to catch my mistakes. She gets a kick out of it when i mess up. But i couldn't careless, all i care is that my freaking hernia heals completely!!! And it is pusing upwards, so i am doing Yogo and natural hike and cycling to get my thigh area stronger. Basically our whole body needs to regularly exercise, it doesn't have to be all hardcore, just do it like 30 mins a day beats not doing it at all! So we should all get our lazy ass up and work our body so that our bones and muscles and eyesight and brain and so that we won't be all painful when we grow old and get all slow with a cane or walker. None of us need that and wants that, and we don't if we just simply spent 30mins to exercise or 1 hour.

Anyways, please pray for my hernia to heal and be storng! Thanks so much!!!!!!!! God hears, have Faith!


oh as for being honest, everytime Lovemama catches my mistake, i just have to be honest with her, cause she knows if i'm lying or not. So i have to swollow my pride and just be real and take the whip!

As for being trusting.... the resident's at times don't trust me. Even though they have Alzheimer's disease... they can still remember certain people they see everyday. So i had to earn their trust in me which still problematic at times. Sometimes they be so nice and sweet to me and at other times they want to "i'm gonna kick your ass!" as one resident said to me for no apparent reason as i was giving her a plate of fruit. So i'm learning still... but one thing that works for me and them is though my voice. They really can distinguish the voice and tone. So you know like sheeps, they can't remember so well, but they can recognize the voice or the tone of voice (something familiar to them). So trusting is something i learn is that to trust is to have faith.

As for schelding. Well schelduling is important to organize our life and time, i mean it shouldn't be a rule or constriant, but just simply having a list of todos for the day, so that you get them done and is accomplished with a good feeling. Not putting it aside and wait and wait until you die....hahaha But yeah, i do that alot, when i didn't work for the longest time, and i keep on saying i want to make toys, but i just don't do it becos i was lazy and had too much time and didn't plan, didn't care and who cares and just screw it! So attitude is important too to get thing done on time. Like at work, we just things routinely, unless something else happens. But overall, we have a scheldue to make sure whatever is need to get done for the day. Anyways, just have to take note.... since today , i did woke up at 5am and actually got up (even though i don't have to work). And i got my lundry done and sweap the floors and writing this diary and also is only 7something AM.

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!